shedding skin

or: how the Law of Attraction has always been with us

in the past 2 years, it's become very clear to me that - despite my natural reservations - i've been stuck in the programming that has been imposed on us humans for centuries... i too have been sucked into the beliefs that certain people were trustworthy, that certain companies had our best interests at heart and that certain people were the Good Ones... i used to vote, believing that my vote would make a difference, that i was doing my duty as a citizen in a world where everybody did their bit to create a better world. i used to vote left-wing, believing that parties on that side of the political spectrum were more like i saw the world. 

i listened to bands that seemed to represent my values, i watched films that were made by actors and directors who appeared to be good folks, creating a world that i enjoyed seeing represented. 

almost ALL of my core values and views as a citizen of the world have been shattered, betrayed and become beacons of how very WRONG i have been... even i, who didn't believe in heroes, who didn't {wish to} worship and was aware of the intrinsic value in Authenticity of the Self.... of being True to Your Self... 

it feels like i've gone through a mourning process, ever since the 'pandemic' was declared, in March last year, and every single person i used to have some kind of respect for seemed to pander to the Fear, submit to the new normal... without question... all the ones that were once punk/rock/anti-establishment, they all {wishing to be seen as good citizens, as examples to their fans and peers of Modern Virtue} became spokespeople for their health authorities, seemingly spreading the sensible word, appearing to be careful for each other's sake, never once questioning the point of any of the measures they promoted. only questioning those who questioned it.... ridiculing them, demonising them... the modern rebels, that they once were, made into outcasts... 

the process of returning to myself, my own values, my own matrix of truth and authenticity, has been weird, scary sometimes, cos how does one 'replace' a familiar matrix of lies and deception? how does one build a new world based on truth and love, on kindness and inner strength? what template do i have? where do i find like minded people? 

the funny thing is, we have been using the Law of Attraction all of our lives, only, we have been attracting the things that were right for our belief systems. we were taught to believe certain things, and our vibrations called out for all that to be confirmed, so the Universe sent us all the things and people that fitted this narrative. so we got duality and contrast, cos we believed that this was what was Normal. we got the shadows in ourselves represented by other people, cos that's what we believed was truth. other people were evil, not us... other people we devious, not us... other people were wrong/bad/selfish/virtuous {fill in the blanks}, not us... 

many of us around the world have been awake {aware}, but still part of the matrix. raised by people who were stuck in it themselves, our vision blurred by conditioning & traumas, by fear of exclusion, or whatever other things obscured our Inner Knowing. but these last 2 years have raised the veil... these last 2 years have shown us that we were 'different' for a reason... we never really fitted into the Society that was created, we never really fitted into the matrix of fear and submission, of singing to the tune of controlled governments... 

but in order to move away from this, we need to accept these parts of ourselves first - we are all of those things that we see around us. it's no use railing against the wrongs we see around us and not see them within ourselves... then we'd still be living inside the Us v Them matrix of the old world... 

make a note of all the things around you that annoy you, that bug you, and ask yourself: how do i do this myself? where am i all of those things? it can be scary to do this, confronting yourself with things you don't wish to see, certainly not in yourself, but it's crucial in order to move on... to move into a new World all together...